Life is unpredictable.. 
My 1st Abang had passed away 7 years ago but i still can feel his presence from time to time especially during Hari Raya.
He was very strict but generous at the same time. I would ask my mom to be the negotiator every time i needed extra allowances. Once, he fired me with tons of questions when i asked him to buy a camera for me, but in the end he did buy it. He never showed his loves toward us but through his actions i know he did love me. He never failed to visit me every month, although maybe my mom was the one who insisting him to do so. He has been someone i looked up too. He has been my role model ever since i was still a little girl. I used to tell myself to study hard and make him proud. But... Allah took him first while i was struggling in my final year. It was...
I have been studying all this while just for him-to make him proud, to repay all his sacrifices. Suddenly, he's gone... forever.
When his wife told us she was going back to her hometown, my heart ached so much. She was going to take the only memory of Abang with her. His children. I was crying inside. Whenever we went there to visit i was not able to hold my tears. Whenever they came back during school break his only son would talk about his late father continuously. The memories of Abang...
Last week they were here again. This time they were running away on the day their mother was getting married. I was there before the wedding, they said they would prefer to go to the new house rather than going back with me. The next day my Kak Long told me that both of them were going to spend the school break here. What was happening? I was surprise... really surprised.
Kakak is 12 years old and adik is 10 years old. Although adik was excited about the marriage but kakak...
Trust me, i did not opposed the marriage but i wondered-what was her main reason? Was it just for her own good or... It seems that her children did not know their new father very well. Whenever we asked about it kakak was trying her very best to avoid it.
One day, adik told us he wanted to visit Abang. He said he missed him so much. I couldn't say a word. I was trying to hold the tears from falling again. He was really closed with Abang. He recognizes all Abang's stuff although it has been 7 years now. He remembers everything he did with Abang.
This time i did not have the couraged to kiss and hug them during the day i sent them off. I was affraid i would break down and cry again. With them i usually failed to stay calm. The resemblance of Abang was there in Kakak and Adik. That was what make my heart ache every time we have to be apart.
Adik will be leaving to Kuala Lumpur soon. He is going to live with his aunt there. That leave kakak on her own. I was trying to convince their mother about letting kakak to live with me, but she kept saying their grandparents would feel lonely if both of them go.
It makes me thinking again... before this she told us that she would take care of her parents. Now, since she is married, she leaves the task to kakak?
My 1st Abang had passed away 7 years ago but i still can feel his presence from time to time especially during Hari Raya.
He was very strict but generous at the same time. I would ask my mom to be the negotiator every time i needed extra allowances. Once, he fired me with tons of questions when i asked him to buy a camera for me, but in the end he did buy it. He never showed his loves toward us but through his actions i know he did love me. He never failed to visit me every month, although maybe my mom was the one who insisting him to do so. He has been someone i looked up too. He has been my role model ever since i was still a little girl. I used to tell myself to study hard and make him proud. But... Allah took him first while i was struggling in my final year. It was...
I have been studying all this while just for him-to make him proud, to repay all his sacrifices. Suddenly, he's gone... forever.
When his wife told us she was going back to her hometown, my heart ached so much. She was going to take the only memory of Abang with her. His children. I was crying inside. Whenever we went there to visit i was not able to hold my tears. Whenever they came back during school break his only son would talk about his late father continuously. The memories of Abang...
Last week they were here again. This time they were running away on the day their mother was getting married. I was there before the wedding, they said they would prefer to go to the new house rather than going back with me. The next day my Kak Long told me that both of them were going to spend the school break here. What was happening? I was surprise... really surprised.
Kakak is 12 years old and adik is 10 years old. Although adik was excited about the marriage but kakak...
Trust me, i did not opposed the marriage but i wondered-what was her main reason? Was it just for her own good or... It seems that her children did not know their new father very well. Whenever we asked about it kakak was trying her very best to avoid it.
One day, adik told us he wanted to visit Abang. He said he missed him so much. I couldn't say a word. I was trying to hold the tears from falling again. He was really closed with Abang. He recognizes all Abang's stuff although it has been 7 years now. He remembers everything he did with Abang.
This time i did not have the couraged to kiss and hug them during the day i sent them off. I was affraid i would break down and cry again. With them i usually failed to stay calm. The resemblance of Abang was there in Kakak and Adik. That was what make my heart ache every time we have to be apart.
Adik will be leaving to Kuala Lumpur soon. He is going to live with his aunt there. That leave kakak on her own. I was trying to convince their mother about letting kakak to live with me, but she kept saying their grandparents would feel lonely if both of them go.
It makes me thinking again... before this she told us that she would take care of her parents. Now, since she is married, she leaves the task to kakak?
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